We are back to blogging!

After months, and I do mean months, of thought and prayer we are back! I have been thinking through a lot of details regarding this blog and just giving this one up and moving on with life... I think that it would be yet another stage of grief in my doing so. After looking at our readers map, I have come to the conclusion that this blog will be my place to share thought and encouragements along the way of our live. We will be linking in our family blog that is a direction for us.. watch for the changes to the page.. I am going to try and really make this blog a ministry to those who are hurting and aching for someone to understand... I will be linking things that were helpful in my grief journey. I hope they will be a help and a ministry to you. If you are reading this and you have not read our story.. please go to the archives and read the very first post of this blog.
Looking forward to the days ahead!

Please excuse our mess!

I am not sure what is going on with all of the weird things on our blog (pictures not showing up.. ect..) but Please excuse this as we try to get our feet back into our blog.
If you are new here. Check out our first blog entry .. you will find the date in Aug 2008 I believe. We will be chatting again soon!

The Club

"its a club we never wanted to be a part of, one we would not choose for ourselves. A club that God himself has chosen for us to be a part of, to give him glory and to rejoice in his goodness." I would not go back and change a single pregnancy... I know if you are reading this in the midst of your loss that this doesnt probably make sence. Let me explain, I would love to have never experienced the loss of our children. I would love to have a house full of laughing playing kids, all of which would be under the age of 6. But, I do know that I would not have had the oppertunites to meet,help and encourage others. Of which is a part of what I love to do. I know that the Lord has a special reason and plan. I am excited to think, that I have 4 beautiful , perfect children that are experiencing the joys of Heaven. How could I, if I truely love my children, wish them out of that? They will never experience pain, sorrow, or the sin of this present world. For that I will be glad. I will focus on that untill the day I meet them in heaven. I am thankful that 6 years have gone by and the Lord has done so much in my heart and life. 6 years ago, I wasnt in this place, I wasnt content with the lot the Lord has chose for me. But today I can say "It is Well with My soul" I will close with the words to this song."When Peace like a river, attendeth my way. When Sorrow like sea billows roll. Whatever my lot, God has taught me to say, it is well with my soul.Tho Satan should buffet , tho trial should come. Let this blessed assurance controll. That Christ has regarded my helpless estate, and hath shed his own blood, for my soul.It is well, with my soul."

Our day...

We are having a great day here.. how about you... Loving that Isabella has caught the Clean out things bug! We have been organizing her toys, what she wants to keep, sell and give away... sounds like a cleaning show! LOL! We have waayyy to many toys and are in need of some order... We will post pics soon of our organizing masterpiece... in the mean time, what have you all been up to? Love to hear from ya!

This makes me melt!!

I just cant believe how stinkin big she is getting! She is such a sweet girl, yesterday we asked her what she wanted to pray for at lunch... she said a list of her friends, and thank Jesus for our house... I love this age!!

7 days to go!!

Well I thought that I would get on here and update that we have just days to go before our due date! Little miss is taking her sweet time and still jumping around like she is just having a blast! I am nesting like crazy and loving it, Lots of things planned for today! I keep finding awesome deals and stocking up on things that we will be using soon...
like... Thurs. My husband is the mgr at our local Walgreens and they are all the time having great deals and such. My friend Megan also works there and she is the coupon queen, amazing the deals she gets, I just have negelected to take the time to really search. Anyway~ They clearanced their store brand diapers so I ended up making runs to quite a few Walgreens Between Meg and I we totally wiped out Darrells store, then went to 6 other stores, and yes it was worth my time and gas. I will have to take a pic before I store them away, but I ended up spending about $97 and saved over $350!! Also picked up pull ups for my niece and for a friend depending on the store I either spent .97 for 3 pks or .17 for 3 pks! I was having fun, and it was a great time with Bella.. she kept asking, "now is this one daddys Walgreens?" She had to be thinking " Seriously how many Walgreens can there be??"
Then this week we found a great deal on a sit and stand stroller with infant bar, yeah! Cant wait to try that out! And scored some great deals on Ebay for some much needed baby clothes to start us off ( Bella and baby are totally opposite seasons).
Well thats the update on us, How are you all doing??

Wow I have been slacking!

I realized that it has been awhile since I posted last. Things here have been a bit busy. We are now down to 5 weeks and waiting for Baby Girl Roeske. We have not nailed down a name, I feel just crazy saying that I cant find a name I like as much as Isabella or Bella.. cant keep using that one! LOL! ~ Here pretty soon my honey is taking me to dinner at my favorite fish place - totally craving that

So what is new with you all??